Today was (and continues to be) a monumental day in many (okay, two) ways. To start with, today was the last day I went to the women's shelter, for a while at the least. I hadn't really anticipated how hard it would be to leave those girls, but that just intensified the sense of sadness I felt when I left through the iron gates. All the girls I talked to and/or taught were assembled near the garden and waving away and I felt really BAD that I wouldn't be coming back the next day!
Well, everything happens for a reason, every cloud has a silver lining and all that jazz, because today those girls actually studied! They knew my friends and I weren't coming back, so they put in more effort, asked so many questions, and actually learned and grasped whatever we explained to them fairly quickly. (On a side note, for anyone who wants to teach English at any given point, spellings are hard. Pronunciation is even harder. I was as annoyed as I could be, trying to teach them how to pronounce 'sh' as 'sh' and not 's'. I finally found a way by first asking them to make snakelike hissing noises, and then saying 'shhhh', like when you want someone to stop talking. That worked amazingly!) By the end of it we were all hugging and exchanging numbers. Well, you can't really call it exchanging cause it was just one sided. My friends and I gave them our numbers, so they can freely contact us whenever they want! We are gonna try really hard to take out some time for them before the summers though, cause it seems too far away.
Which brings me to the second reason for the day being monumental. The reason we have to stop going to the shelter is because SENIOR YEAR STARTS TOMORROW! Oh my god I am absolutely freaking out. I am going to enter the final year of my school life tomorrow, and if last year has been any sort of indication, it's gonna swiftly pass me by before I even know it! And pretty soon I am gonna be sitting for my SATs, and then IELTS, then Subject tests, then I'll be filling out a gazillion forms and writing even more essays! And then if I am not selected anywhere in the US/UK (always the optimist), I am gonna have to start the application process for Indian colleges and oh, how can I forget? I WILL BE GIVING BOARD EXAMINATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, everything happens for a reason, every cloud has a silver lining and all that jazz, because today those girls actually studied! They knew my friends and I weren't coming back, so they put in more effort, asked so many questions, and actually learned and grasped whatever we explained to them fairly quickly. (On a side note, for anyone who wants to teach English at any given point, spellings are hard. Pronunciation is even harder. I was as annoyed as I could be, trying to teach them how to pronounce 'sh' as 'sh' and not 's'. I finally found a way by first asking them to make snakelike hissing noises, and then saying 'shhhh', like when you want someone to stop talking. That worked amazingly!) By the end of it we were all hugging and exchanging numbers. Well, you can't really call it exchanging cause it was just one sided. My friends and I gave them our numbers, so they can freely contact us whenever they want! We are gonna try really hard to take out some time for them before the summers though, cause it seems too far away.
Which brings me to the second reason for the day being monumental. The reason we have to stop going to the shelter is because SENIOR YEAR STARTS TOMORROW! Oh my god I am absolutely freaking out. I am going to enter the final year of my school life tomorrow, and if last year has been any sort of indication, it's gonna swiftly pass me by before I even know it! And pretty soon I am gonna be sitting for my SATs, and then IELTS, then Subject tests, then I'll be filling out a gazillion forms and writing even more essays! And then if I am not selected anywhere in the US/UK (always the optimist), I am gonna have to start the application process for Indian colleges and oh, how can I forget? I WILL BE GIVING BOARD EXAMINATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*Tries to calm down but fails miserably* How can I be calm when one year from now, I am gonna be thinking about colleges and no longer have the option to go to school, EVER. (Sure, I can go for visits and reunions..uh, you know what I mean right?) It's so ironic that when I was little, my cousins and thought the best way to spend time was to make a movie and enact super awesome characters (who am I kidding? It IS the best way to spend time, seriously.) and I ALWAYS played Katie, who could walk through walls in Justice League, and I used to beg them to let my character be in 12th grade, because somehow I thought the coolest place to be for a person was senior year of high school. I squealed 'I'll be a senior! I'll be eighteen years old' and now that I am seventeen going on eighteen, I wanna go back to kindergarten! Thinking about colleges, what you wanna do with yourself, the idea of not being one yelling room away from your mother (MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM. I love you.), it's all super surreal. That's not even the weird part though. The weird part is that I am also super duper excited to be in this place! I feel really cool inside that I am gonna be senior from tomorrow. The only thing that's holding me back from fully enjoying the vibe of being a senior is the fact that my math tutor told me that almost half the math this year will be trigonometry. ALMOST HALF! How freaking unfair. I can promptly kiss all Ivy League colleges goodbye, because I can't think of a reason Princeton will select an applicant who failed Math.
Nor can I think of a reason why Delhi University, St. Xaviers, Loyola or any other college will accept me. So basically my life is screwed.
Like I said, always the optimist.
So I guess what I am saying is that I am experiencing conflicting emotions! On one side I am insanely excited at the thought of being in senior year, having college admission tests to prepare for, and just dreaming of a wonderful world out there, but on the other hand I am also VERY uncomfortable kissing my familiar world goodbye. I guess I am getting extreme, I still have an year to go before I really have to leave my hometown, but still I feel weird that tomorrow will be the beginning of the end of my school life. That's gotta have a place in the list of things that can make a person freak out, right? RIGHT?
Song I am addicted to right now- Mera Mann Kehne Laga -Falak Shabir, Nautanki Saala (Ayushmaan. Nuff said.)
Movie worth watching- The Dictator. All I can say is this- ABSOFUCKINLUTELY HILARIOUS AND DISGUSTING!
Laters, baby (That's about the ONLY thing you got right, E.L. James and since you copied an entire book and destroyed it even more with porn *who would have thought someone could make Twilight worse? I say that at the risk of sounding like an absolute hypocrite because I was going through my earlier blog posts and I came across one where I swooned over Edward Cullen and gushed how Twilight HAD to be read by everyone. Yeah, you can totally shoot me guys*, I am justified in using a phrase from your book, as many times as I want right? Yeah, that's what I thought.)
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