Jobless rambling

Why are you so far away? he said
Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you
You, soft and only
You,lost and lonely
You, strange as angels
Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe his name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only boy I loved
And drowned him deep inside of me
You, soft and only
You, lost and lonely
You, just like heaven

Beautiful ,isn't it?
This is the Katie Melua version though..which I like better because..well..I am a girl =D
The Cure's version is pretty amazing too, if you ignore the LONG instumental beginning..and I am the kinda person who doesn't like long instrumentals..I like lyrics :)

Things I am looking forward to:

• HOLIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!! Tomorrowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww :) Although, the Holi season in my appartment means you cant be wearing something nice and go down, because people WILL throw balloons and spoil your dress. And I, of all people, cannot say anything because I do that a LOT myself!! :P
• Kumkum maasi coming tonight!! With my sweetheart, her daughter Rujul (pronounced as Rujal, although it doesnt really matter because we call her Baklola! =D) I met her three months ago, when I was in Jaipur and she was a KID and now when I talk to her, it's like she's all grown up..it's UNCANNY.
• Did you hear about the Morgans? on Zee Cafe. Ever since I saw Notting Hill after a LONG time again, I am into Hugh Grant again..he's wunnnerful =D..and thanks to I don't even know WHO, my Torrent software just doesn't work. I still haven't seen the Social Network or Black Swan! :X And there are soooo many movies I had deleted but wanna see again, but I CAN'T. It sucks. I realllly hope Mausaji can fix it when he comes tonight. Although I'd rather face a dead torrent software than the only maternal relative I hate. But well, maasi loves him (I dont really know WHY :/)
  And, who doesn't like Sarah Gellar's dresses?
• Rangoli di coming on 1st April!!!!!!!!!! :D I know it's like a LONG way to go, but I love her wayy too much :) It's so much better with an elder sister around..Plus, she's a pretty DHANSU agony aunt, and I need a lot of advices right now!! And I have no one except Mauli n Neha di for that..and Neha di can't solve this one, and Mauli SUCKS at it!! *sigh*
  Plus, she's bringing lots of movies and sitcoms with her!!!!!!!!! =) =) And my empty hard disk keeps creeping up on me and silently yet ardently begging me to give it something to eat! :P
• New session which I dont know starts WHEN exactly!!!! I remember when all of us used to play 'ghar ghar' and I always used to be this brat who was in 10th standard, because I thought (all of us thought) 10th standard was like really really cool! And now I am gonna be in 10th..REALLY!! And then the year will swoosh by soon enough (hopefully) and I ll finally be able to bid Science and Hindi GOODBYE!! And Geography..ESPECIALLY Geography..I hate it!!!!!!! :x
• 22nd March- Answer sheets distribution! Okay, I am DREADING it, but in a strange way I am looking forward to it too..because I miss my friends WAY TOO MUCH!!!!!! Talking on the phone is just NOT the same!! Pallavi is off to VaishnavDevi, Varsha's mother STILL hasnt giver her phone back and Yashwi is dealing with a situation where if I call her, both of us are dead meat.
  Not to mention, we'll be celebrating Akarshak's b'dayyyyyy!!! Okay fine not exactly celebrating, just pestering him for a treat! :D
• The India vs. West Indies match which I THINK is tomorrow!! Every day the first thing I do is open TOI's sports page and pray to God it's India playing..It's like when I had exams, every other day it was India vs. some other team..but now that I am free, India JUST ISN'T PLAYING!! Life's weird. :/ I am guessing I ll be done with Holi by 2:30 so I can catch the whole thing..plus, Daddy's home!! The daddy-daughter cricket sessions, I absolutely ADORE!!! =D

Oh, and I saw Memoirs of a Geisha..it's a beautiful (if kinda heavy) movie!! The best part was when in the end Sayuri and Chairman finally kiss, and then she's like 'You cannot say to the sun 'More sun', or to the rain 'Less rain', to a man, geisha can only be half a wife. We are the wives of nightfall. And yet, to learn of kindness after so much unkindness, to understand that a little girl with more courage than she knew would find her prayers were answered, can that not be called happiness? After all, these are not the memoirs of an empress, nor of a queen. These are memoirs of another kind.'

These lines were absolutely stunning. And I didn't even realize but I grew to really like the Chairman and Sayuri, and was unconsciously rooting for them the whole time, when initially, the idea of Chiyo with the MUCH older chairman had honestly grossed me out. I am still opposed to it, but there are exceptions right? :)

It had been on my PC for a LONG time, and I cant understand why I ignored it for such a long time. Everyone (okay not kids :P) should see the movie!

More later..keep up the prayers!! And a verry happy Holi in advance to y'all, cause I know I wont be blogging for a some time now! Have a WILD, colorful, bhaang-ful holi!!!!! :D

NOTHING tastes like Freedom

Watch all the flowers
Dance with the wind
Listen to snowflakes
Whisper your name
Feel all the wonder
Lifting your dreams
You can fly
Fly to who you are
Climb upon your star
You believe you'll find your wings
Fly To your heart
Touch every rainbow
Painting the sky
Look at the magic
Glide through your life
A sprinkle of pixie dust circles the night you can fly
Fly to who you are
Climb upon your star
You believe you'll find your wings
Fly
Everywhere you go
So we'll find a home
You'll be free to spread your wings
Fly You can fly
To your heart
Rise to the heights of all you can be
Soar on the hope of marvelous things
Fly to who you are
Climb upon your star
You believe you'll find your wings
Fly
Everwhere you go
So we'll find a home
You'll be free to spread your wings
Fly
You can flyTo your heart

*Cooo cooo*
Hey there guys!
The Idiosyncratic Wizard isn't here today.
She's sleeping. Peacefully. After a LONG time. Without weird, disconnected, incoherent dreams about flunking in a certain exam and at the same time watching a movie premiere, from where she falls into nothingness and can't stop falling until she's in an examination hall where she has to give her COLLEGE entrance exam, from where the already-illogical dream takes unpredictable twists and turns which are equally bizarre if not more, only she cannot remember all that.
PS. Whenever someone tells u a dream really enthusiastically, scene by scene, with descriptive details, most of the time, the person is a bald-faced liar.
Anyways, she's deep in slumber, probably in heaven next to Edward watching a Boys Like Girls concert, kissing and holding hands.
But the free, independent, no longer impeded bird couldn't really keep mum anymore.
Oh and by the way, I am the FINLI (free independent no longer impeded) bird !! :)
People can't really see me, I am just a non-existent shadow of Shambhavi's soul who will be back inside her body where she belongs when she wakes up.
I was trapped in a cage for so long, it is unfair.
Every year twice, for periods of two-three weeks, merciless administrations coerce our keepers into burying their heads deep inside books filled with stuff that makes no sense. Every year they are made to miss all their favorite shows, all their hours on the computer, all the places they could be, all the movies they could watch, all the songs they could listen to, in order to STUDY!
And the fun-loving birds inside them (exhibit A- MEE!!), the free-spirited, constraint-less, self-controlling creatures, are hidden deep inside their hearts, locked up in corners they don't dare touch in order to be promoted gracefully.
We rot and get destroyed, thinking our doom is near, until all of a sudden, we hear footsteps.
Which are expected. We can feel the anticipation, the excitement building up inside our keepers. We can feel them thinking of us more and more, with increasing longing, because they know it won't harm them. They know they can innocuously ponder about us, all they like, what they'd do with us around, because the time isn't far when the blasted yearly examinations will be over, and they will ultimately, FINALLY, be spared FREE!
Free to enjoy. Free to play like they are born to. Free to spend their time as they'd like to. No more lectures from parents. No more books and notebooks silently, creepily chastising them with scrunched up noses in disappointment whenever they take breaks which are longer than needed..which is most of the time. Okay, ALL the time. No more of that moronic 'conscience' pricking every time they feel like they can't study any more and call their friends when they should very frankly be mugging up stuff faster than a cheetah runs.
We, the birds, are the mortal enemies of Conscience. We dont like it every time reminding our keepers of other stuff they need to do, stuff they are responsible for, when they are having the time of their lives.
Boo YA conscience!!
We are BA-ACK!!!
Now our keepers can let loost, partaaaaaaay, have FUN , watch as much TV as they want to, talk for as many hours as they'd like to, go out to as many places as they can.
Because, guess what?
Your reign is over.
It's our time now.
Exams, my friends, even though it felt like this sacred day won't ever come, are OVER.
We are FREE.
And we are gonna enjoy our freedom
Because nothing in the world tastes like the exams-are-over-freedom.
NOTHING.
*Coo coo*
(Okay I know this sucks, just thank God u cannot HEAR me ! :D)

I can hear her waking, fully rested, blurry eyes and weared stance GONE, ready to take over the world.
And I am going to accompany her.

And the love kickstarts again!

You want me to come over I got an excuse
Might be holding your hand but I am holding it loose
Go to talk then we choke it's like our neck's in a noose
Avoid the obvious we should be facing the truth
Start to think it could be fizzling out
Kinda shocked cause I never really had any doubts
Look into your eyes, imagine life without ya..
And the love kickstarts again!
Starts again!
And the love kickstarts again!
Starts again!

It's funny how you stumble upon stuff on the web!! I was FINALLY done with Science for the day, so I thought let's watch some TV!! But today was one of those 'there's-nothing-on-TV' days!! (Gee thanks for THAT. Mauli gets to watch Stepmom and My Best Friend's Wedding when I am crying over Physics, and then when I am done, what do I see? NOTHING's on TV!!)
Even Star World SUCKS now-a-days!
So anyways, I was like, let's watch The Vampire Diaries then!! So I went to iwatchthevampirediaries.com, and what do I get? Lo and behold, NOTHING :/ No link had ANY videos!! But then one of the links opened up with some of those irritating pop-up pages, and one of them was a YouTube video.
I'd ALMOST clicked on the Close button (It's REFLEX. You close pop-ups. No ifs and buts about that. It's what you do. Like you breathe.)
But then I was like..woah wait, what's THAT?
It was a promotional for a Disney movie called Prom. And it was awesomeeeeeeeeeeee! =D
Here's the official website which all prom lovers and rom-com lovers HAVE to check out!!
Oh, and the movie an absolutely AMAZING soundtrack!!

1. Kickstarts- Example
2. Not your birthday- All Star Weekend
3. Prettiest Thing- Oh Darling
4. 1983- Neon Trees
5. Your Surrender- Neon Trees

I hadnt even HEARD the name of any of the artists..but they are all great..I need to break this complacent zone I am in, listening to all the SAME artists, I have to broaden my choices!!

Oh, and ALSO, the protagonist is cuuuuuuuuuuuteee :)

Mah-n!! Once you're on Disney, THERE go all your plans of studying down the drain!! But wait, I'd forgotten- Here's the deal..I am pretty much DONE =D

I know..it's unbelievible..all the time, I am like studying till the LAST minute for Science..but this time, I am done. Which doesn't include the blasted Diversity chapter, but who the hell cares? One DAY for one CHAPTER..WAYY more than what I need. One hour tops!! I am SO HAPPYYYYYYY!!!

I need to do this more. I NEED to complete my course before time..the feeling is awesomee! I am pretty much done with Maths too..if only the next four days pass as soon as possible..I cant take those looks mum gives me everytime I watch TV/ talk on the phone/ sit on the computer ! Not to mention the inevitable lectures which go like-

Mum: *raises eyebrows*

Me: WHAT?

Mum: Nothing. *eyebrows still raised, leaves the room*

Me: *runs after her* Mummma! What's the problem??

Mum: Beta, you should STUDY!!

Me: But I am DONE alreadyy!

Mum: No you're not..

Me: Umm, yes, I am.

Mum: Are you gonna score 100 ?

Me: Not exactly..

Mum: See you're not!!

Me: But I dont HAVE to score that much.

Mum: I know, but you're not PREPARED. Don't lie!

Me: You're impossibleeeeeeeeee :/ And unreasonable!!!!

Mum: I won't be if you'd study

Me: But---

Mum: Fine. Don't study. *Makes a face and goes away*

Me: Ugh. *Turns off TV* HAPPY NOW? :/ *goes to her room and slams the door real HARD*

5 minutes later..

*Mum enters with some or the other food item and coffee*

Me: I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU =)

Yeah, the food and coffee part rocks but the whole conversation part SUCKS. I happen to LIKE watching TV without raised eyebrows and faces, thank you very much!! :P

Oh, and through this post, I'd like to say to my tutor who gets married on 11th:

May you acquire all the energy and patience the (awesome by default) woman in your life demands. May you rock the wedding AND the marriage. May you have lots of cute babies and a happy life. May your wife be wayyy more good-looking (and shorter) than YOU are.

May you have the best wedding night everrr, and may my science exam rock as much as your wedding night does =D

Keep up the anti poverty and anti terrorism prayers!! They COUNT. They really do. :)

My room is the GSpot! =D

Okay before I begin with my ramblings, let me make it very clear that the Title bears absolutely NO reference to whatever crap I am about to pour (because, as a matter of fact, I dont know what exactly I am gonna write yet!)

It's just that, I heard this song called BedRock by Lil Wayne..and well, its pretty darn awesome!! The lyrics are funnnyyyyyyyyyy =D

Ooh Baby,I Be Stuck To You,

Like Glue Baby,

Wanna Spend It All On You,

Baby,

My Room Is The G Spot,

Call Me Mr. Flintstone,

I Can Make Your Bed Rock

I-I-I I Can Make Your Bed Rock

I-I-I I Can Make Your Bed Rock Girl

I-I-I I Can Make Your Bed Rock
I-I-I I Can Make Your Bed Rock

Dont ask me why it's funny, it just is!! I like the song a LOT!! Songs like Lollipop, Bottoms Up, Bed Rock, I have to agree, are awesome in a weird way!! And addictive!! :)

Oh, and Nicki Minaj--- ROCKS!!

Enough music world shit for one blog post right?

Oh no, WRONG!

I am blogging after a LOOOONG time!! How can I not tell y'all how much I love Lady Antebellum right now? This is weird, but before Grammys, I'd never really heard of Need you now! I mean, yeah, I'd watched the initial glimpses on VH1/ MTV but it seemed like one of those sad songs where the girl is wasted away and cant do without her affinity et cetera. You know, one of those songs which make u flip channels!
I couldnt be more wrong.
So one of my Facebook friends posted the lyrics as her status, and I was like, heyy, that's NICE!! Google-d it and I was like..uhm, this song?
And as long as I am in the weird zone, also, I thought Lady Antebellum was the girl who sings the song!! =P (Cmon, if you've heard the song, you know the guy only starts singing later on in the song..it's a passable error! Yes it is!) But OMG! The song is so makes-you-swoom vaala amazing!! :)

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone cause I cant fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind? For me it happens all the time!
It's a quarter after one, I am all alone, and I NEED YOU NOW!!
Said I wouldnt call but I've lost all control and I NEED YOU NOW!!!!!!

I know SO many people that could relate to those lyrics! Although I cant!! (Not really sure what face I WANNA make here..)
On the bright side today, I KILLED the English paper. It's dead and gone. It was so damn easyy! It was wayy TOO easy for 9th standard, very frankly. They gave us articles on the FESTIVALS OF INDIA!! A letter to our brother, advising him not to ride bikes recklessly!! I know, kiddish !!
And then there was this Speech on whether computer games make children violent. Well, I am not a big fan of computer games, so it wasn't hard for me to copy all the points from the hints and create a presentable speech! The Literature section was halwa!!
It was the READING section that was tough (imagine that!!) The Unseen Passages options are soo confusing!! It's like , ALL the options are pretty darn appropriate. It sucks!
But whatever, I am pretty sure I can score 90 above, which is decent, all things considered!!


The next paper I HOPE I can kill is Hindi!! I am gonna have to do some serious pestering tomorrow, to make mum read some of those make-NO-sense-and-what-s-the-bloody-POINT? chapters!! Or maybe I can ask Maulii! But Satan knows that bitch is so not going to help me!! :(
Which reminds me..did I tell y'all about my birthday?
But no!
I think it's special enough to deserve a complete post dedicated to it!!
Not to mention I dont have that much of energy to write down ALL of it!
Except that it was pretty dang amazing! =D
Varsha Yashwi Pallavi Ratnam Akarshak ---------- YOU GUYS ROCK!! :)
Mauli you RULEE!! :)
And mom, YOU ARE THE BESTESTESTESTESTEST MOTHER IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!!
And bhaiya, you are beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesttttttttttttttttttttttttteeeeeeessssssssst and the classssssssssiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeessssssssst sibling ever!! I heart you!! :)

More later..
Hey, I forgot all about the anti-poverty and terrorism prayers!
Keep 'em going!
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