Thursday, December 5, 2013

My boring routine. And test jitters.

It's kind of amazing how bored yet busy you can be in life.- Shambhavi Rai 

Here's a lowdown of my schedule these past few weeks-
12/1/2 (!!!!) pm- Wake up
12/1/2 to 3 pm- Waste time on WhatsApp, Instagram, Facebook, eat something, listen to your mom rant about wasting time, not necessarily in that order.
3-5 pm*- Study. Get interrupted by WhatsApp messages, or Facebook messages, but never turn your phone off, also keep studying. If it's on silent, keep checking for new messages/notifications every few minutes, then go back to studying
5-6 pm- Take a break because oh my god, I've studied for two whole hours (ignore the small interruptions)
6-8 pm- Catch up on the latest episode of How I Met Your Mother/The Originals/New Girl/Modern Family/The Vampire Diaries, analyse the entire episode with reviews on Wetpaint, watch promos for the next episode, read a few Wikipedia bios of guest stars.
8-9 pm- Study again. Interruptions included, OBVIOUSLY.
9-10 pm- Bigg boss, bigg boss, bigg boooooossssss. (Sing it, guys!) Gauhar and Kushal FTW.
10-11 pm**-Talk to mom, which more often than not includes some lecture about not studying. Love you though <3 font="">
11-4/5 am- Study. With interruptions. Do I really need to say it?
4-5 or 5-5:30 am- Catch up BuzzFeed, Cracked, Flipboard, Slate, Jezebel. I am an aspiring writer and all that no?
5/5:30-12/1/2 pm (!!!!)- Sleep! Oh I love thou, slumber.

*On alternate days, I endure my Maths and Accounts tutors for those two hours.
**On Fridays and Saturdays, I watch 24 (the Indian version. Shut your face if you want to say something about plagiarism. I absolutely LOVE that show.)

So I am hoping you can judge by my wonderful routine how I am going to be acing all my tests. I have two Subject Tests (aka SAT II. Most 'good' colleges require them.) on 7th of December. Like the oh-so-responsible person I deem myself to be, I forgot to register. Because it's completely normal and forgivable to forget what you've kind of been preparing for since three-four months no? No.
I am waitlisted now and I am absolutely terrified that I MAY return from the test center without giving the actual tests.
Pray for me, anyone and everyone reading this.
In another scenarios, if I am admitted to the tests after all I'll actually have to give them. What's more scary, I am thinking.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
I am so so scared even though contrary to what my routine may suggest, though studying-hours-with-interruptions have prepared me enough to pass with respectable scores, I think. I hate test jitters seriously. In fact, before all important tests I always start to freak out and end up studying on the last day because I have to keep distracting myself with other things to stop myself from well, I can't think of a better term than freaking the fuck out! 
And that actually sucks a lot more when you consider that I am procrastinator, as a result of which I always make a 'prepare on last day' compartment in my mind for a few things. For example, some volumes and areas formulae for the Math Level 1 Subject test. I have to properly learn them on 6th, which is tomorrow (technically today but it's not the next day unless you sleep, right?) and I am just going to be thinking- What's gonna happen? What if I don't know anything? What if it's completely different from the practice papers? What if I am not allowed to even sit for the test??????????????????????

Like I said, pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaasssssssssse pray.
And fans of One Direction, I am from the same family. Pray for a fellow directioner? :)

Also, can I just take a minute and talk about Paul Walker? I know for a fact that I hate seeing new RIP Paul Walker posts on my news feed each day because it just reminds me of the tragedy so I hate to do it to someone else but I need to get it out that I loved that guy. Honest to God, I loved the Fast series because of him. I am just ashamed to admit that I didn't know much about him except his all-encompassing good looks and charm prior to his death. He was raising funds for Philippines practically MINUTES before he died. He was into marine biology, he was a surfer, a professional racer and more than all that, an amazing father. All his interviews about Meadow Walker are so adorable.
I am sure he is watching over her from wherever he is now.
Rest in peace you beautiful soul :)
Also, I don't have much to say about the guy who died with him, Roger Rodas, because he wasn't a 'celebrity' so people don't really know (or care to know, sadly.) much about him. From what little I found out, he was a father of two and his 8-year old tried to save him, after he saw the car wrecked. That's absolutely heartbreaking. I know I didn't know of his existence before he tragically passed away, yet I want to say Rest in Peace, Roger Rodas.